Jesy Nelson has bravely discussed the first time she was faced with cruel trolls.
The singer, 28, admitted that it was only when she and her Little Mix bandmates were encouraged to get social media accounts during their time on The X Factor when she noticed people were leaving horrible comments about herself.
Speaking to Roman Kemp on Capital Breakfast on Thursday, Jesy also spoke of her deep distress when she realised that people weren’t focusing on their performance as a whole, but instead leaving distasteful comments about her under their videos.
Jesy Nelson, 28, has bravely discussed the first time she was faced with cruel trolls during a radio appearance with Roman Kemp on on Capital Breakfast on Thursday
Speaking of her ordeal, Jesy candidly explained: ‘When we got into Little Mix, that was when Twitter and all that was getting quite big. And we got given these mobile phones and they were like “you’ve got to have Twitter, because people need to get to know Little Mix and you girls individually.”
‘I just remember we did the first live show and I remember being in the house at the time and everyone was gathering around watching their performances back online, and someone was like “oh look, you can read what people are saying about your performance.”
‘When we went back onto the comments, every single comment was about the way I looked. Nothing was about us as a group or our singing. It was literally like “Jesy is repulsive” “Jesy looks deformed, she looks absolutely disgusting, I don’t want to look at that girl anymore.”’
Jesy further detailed how low the trolling made her feel: ‘I just remember at that time feeling like I don’t know what I’ve done wrong, because I’d never had a problem with the way I looked before social media.
‘Everything changed – my confidence, me as a person, I didn’t want to go out. I missed work, missed shows. When I was on social media and I saw it from grown women and grown men, women with children, mums and dads, I was just like “woah” and it really affected me mentally because I thought “oh god, if they’re saying it, it must be true”.’
Speaking of receiving support from her bandmates, Jesy confessed: ‘I just felt very isolated, I felt very vulnerable and don’t get me wrong, we’ve all dealt with online trolling, but I think at that time, I feel like I got it the worst.
‘I didn’t help myself because I didn’t want to talk about it because I thought ‘if I keep talking about this’ – I mean, at that time, we were on telly every Saturday night and when we did interviews that was all everyone wanted to talk about, and I couldn’t because I thought if I keep talking about this, this is never going to go away. I’m always going to be called “the fat one”, “the ugly one”.
When questioned whether she’d ever consider quitting music, the Romford beauty said: ‘Yeah, for them [bandmates Jade Thirlwall, Perrie Edwards and Leigh-Anne Pinnock] it was hard as well.
‘It must have been such a c*** time for them as well because at the same time they’re like living their dream and so to have someone in the band who was constantly down and depressed all the time.
‘You don’t want that when you’re like living your best life and it was hard for them to be happy but then console me at the same time.’
Her revelation comes after she confessed that at the height of her bullying, following the group’s 2011’s X Factor win, she took an overdose, but was saved by her boyfriend at the time.